Not Happening...

So, I haven't had a phone call in over a week. Is that a sign? I mean, for real...According to the authors of "He's Just Not That Into You" and "It's Called A Break-up Because It's Broken", if he wants to get a hold of you, he will. He should be turning over heaven and Earth to get at you. So, if he doesn't turn over heaven and Earth, does that mean he's not interested? I mean, we've had great conversations...we've had amazing conversations. They can last minutes or hours, but it always feels good. And now, I've done the unthinkable and I've called...I've called three times (once every day in the last three days). I feel so stupid!! If this is the brush-off, I'm taking the hint...No more calling...no more trying. You want me? You come get it...

Can't Sleep

It's the strangest thing, but I just can't sleep anymore. It's not that my body doesn't need the rest, it's just that I woke up, couldn't find a comfy spot, and so, couldn't fall back asleep. I'm not sure what woke me, but whatever it was, it was big because now I can't find whatever it'll take to get me back to sleep. Oh well, right? Perhaps I'm just stressing out. This week Saturday is my first tournament and I'm hosting it! It's super insane, but it's all coming together. Today, I'll have the kids make sings for postings, and I'll begin scheduling competitors. So far, and this is a good thing, no one has signed up for Prose - one of the categories that we're offering. I'm still waiting on two more schools to sign up, and haven't heard anything from one of them.

I think, too, that I'm thinking too much of Akin. I'm not bummed out that we didn't talk last night...I was too tired, anyway. I wonder if the age thing is really going to get in the way or if he can just talk to me despite the fact that he thinks I'm a baby. I don't really know. Should I have opened the door? I suppose it's really too late now. I don't know what's supposed to happen. I don't know what he wants from me...and it's frustrating. I'm not rethinking that I like him because it's pretty obvious that I do. I am just so tired of game playing. I'd like to be up front and real about it all...you know what I mean? I just don't want to be playing games. I feel like I'm too old for that stuff...

So, I've been up since 3:30 and it's now 4:45...I could try to get a little bit of sleep in before I actually have to get up and get ready for work...Another day another dollar, right? Hope you're luckier than I with matters of the heart...